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If you're always so hard on yourself, you'll never be happy.

I'm...tired of being alone.

Created on 2006-11-14 01:24:03 (#11604085), last updated 2009-11-11

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Birthdate:	07-18
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Bio

I'm a surveyor for C.H. Fenstermaker and Assoc.
I enjoy sitting at home watching TV and playing video games,
but also don't mind going out and partying every once in a while.
I'm a writer. I write love stories with happy endings even though it's the most
overused, sappy, typical concept in the writing world.
But I'm a sucker for a happy ending, I can't help it. They give me closure,
even though these stories have nothing to do with my real life. I feel like I know the characters and
I want the best for them.
I'm easy-going for the most part, and am very easy to get along with.
I'm a hopeless romantic. I always have been and I always will be. I believe that true love actually exists and that
love at first sight does happen. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
I write best when I'm depressed or upset. Happiness hurts more than it helps when I'm trying to write a story.
So if you see me sad or angry, don't worry...it's just fueling my creative fires.
I'll be over it tomorrow, anyway.
Did I mention that I'm bi-polar?
Don't let me fool you with my "i don't give a crap about anything" façade.
All I really want is for people to like me.
I care more about how people view me and what they think about me than anything else.
When I write, I must have a soundtrack. If I can't find a song that inspires ideas, then my words go nowhere.
My stories are the only way for me to escape my reality. I live my life through my characters
and help them make choices that I should have made but didn't or couldn't.
I keep them from ruining their lives like I did mine.
And before you say "Your life can't possibly be that bad."...
I have a great job, and a family that loves me.
I've never had a near death experience, I've never been so poor I
couldn't even afford to eat, and I've never felt like I didn't have a home.
But I have lost the one thing that was most important to me in my life.
I have let a lot of people down and ruined a lot of friendships that shouldn't have been.
I have an undelivered message for someone who will never get to read it because I didn't get there in time.
The one person that always cared for me and looked after me is gone,
and I never got to tell him how much I love him and how sorry I am that I wasn't there
as much as I should have been.
Just because my life isn't as bad as some peoples' lives, doesn't mean I'm happy with it.
I'm a lesbian and am madly in love with my girlfriend Holly. I love her more than words can describe. More than anything and anyone in this universe.

Enjoy my mindless drabble. :)